Wednesday, April 27, 2011

It Is What It Is ~ Pressing On

First let me apologize for not posting the winner of the iPad fundraiser. It is coming, I promise. But not until tomorrow. I am really, really sorry for keeping you waiting, but I can assure you it is not without good reason.

In my mind, this post was going to be very different. This was going to be THE post announcing that we were finally DTC. So, to answer the e-mails and texts I have received to day, NO, we are NOT DTC, and we have no idea when we will be.

We have hit a snag like no other.


The roadblocks, the hurdles, and the mountains are no match for what we are up against now. Never in a million years could I have imagined being where we are right now. Never. I wish I could shed some light on the situation, but for now I feel we must keep this to ourselves. I have struggled with whether or not I should even mention it. In the end, I felt like I owe it to you. Many of my followers and readers have been with us since the beginning of our journey to Mylee. You continued to follow and support us through our journey to Drew and Jaxon. And you have been right here with us every step of the way to Keliah. Your prayers and support have helped us over hurdles, through roadblock, and over mountains. So, it is only fair that I be as honest as I can and for now, the only thing I can say is this is a doosey.

I'm not gonna lie, I am terrified. I am heartbroken. I am in complete shock, we all are.

What I am not, is a quitter. I am a fighter, and I am going to fight like you cannot even imagine to bring our girl home.

Our agency is working with us, and are doing everything they can to sort this out. Obviously, their main concern if for Keliah. This is a unique situation and as much as it s#@cks, we completely, 100% understand their concern and will do everything to alleviate that concern.

Believe it or not, we are seeing some light at the end of the tunnel, but it is definitely not over, in fact, I think we have only just begun.

We have already been blessed beyond measure by friends and family who are continuing to support us. They are behind us 110%.

Right now I asking you, begging you to pray for our family. Pray for Keliah. Pray that this is resolved quickly so we can continue to move down that path that He laid out for us. You may not know the specifics of those prayers, but He will, and He will hear them.

It is what it is. Plain and simple. The only thin we can do at this point is to continue to move forward, which is exactly what we are doing. We are moving forward with a fire and passion like no other. We are trusting in the Lord that He is once again testing us, and pray that we will pass. We are giving up all control and laying it in His lap as He is the ultimate decision maker. No one, or no thing is too big for Him. In the end, if it is His will for Keliah to join our family, He will make it happen.

I will do my best to keep you updated, but for now, I may be MIA for the next couple of days while we sort this out. Please e-mail me with any questions.


TanyaLea said...

Oh Mandi ~ I have tried to come on here since your email, but every time I opened up the window, it would lock. We have had so many computer problems, I am just tired of it. Finally, after many phone calls, transfers, and some trouble shooting with a computer engineer... we finally narrowed down the problem and he sent a service report out for us. We had an old modem that wasn't capable with the card we had, and therefore did not have enough signal, so everything kept locking up. We now have a new modem, so it is all solved.

So, anyway... here I am finally catching up on all that is going on. I'm SO sorry to hear of the roadblocks, but yet, not entirely surprised. It seems Satan is on a rampage right now, trying to destroy hope in SO many of God's people who are out there doing good. And he certainly doesn't want to see another orphan come home. But yet I have seen these seemingly endless and 'impossible' struggles arrise for other families before... and just when it seemed like there may be no hope, HE pulls through! God will not leave you alone in this. KNOW that we are most definitely praying. And if you'd like to share any specifics to pray for, you have my email.

Love you, friend... and praying, praying, praying!!!!

Blessings and Hugs,
~ Tanya

Cari said...

i'm so sorry Mandi that your family is having to deal with "this" on top of all the other normal stresses that come with bringing home your daughter. i'm praying for you, friend!

Lynne said...

Sending my prayers and positive healing thoughts for you, and for your beautiful family. We know our God is able.

Jean said...

MAndi- we went thru similar snags. It was really unbelievable. I felt like the opposition would go to grest lengths to try to stop us from adopting Emma and Ellie but somehow with a lot of prayer things were ironed out/ figured out/straightened out!

I will be praying for you and for GHod's mighty hand right the mix- straightening it out for you!

Love your determination!! You can do it!!
HUGS and prayers sent your way!

Girly Girl Mommy said...


Covering you and Keliah in prayer.


Stacy said...

Mandi, I am so sorry to hear about this new road block. I've had this scripture on my fridge and wanted to share with you! Knowing that God has called you to Keliah!

"God is not a man that he should lie,
nor a son of man, that he should change his mind.
Does he speak and then not act?
Does he promise and not fulfill?"
Numbers 23:19

Praying for you all! Praying for mountains to be moved!
Blessings, Stacy

living4him5 said...


I am praying for the will of our Lord to be shown to you during this difficult time. I don't know your situation however I can relate to the fear, worry and shock as we lost our Madelyn THREE times within 19 months. I didn't think I could keep going but the Lord Jesus showed up BIG and you just have to hang on to Him. The enemy does not like children to come out of life as an orphan and it is our duty to pray them out. God will free your sweet girl from the chains of life as an orphan. I know in my heart and soul you are in a spiritual battle and you must stay strong. This period of unknown will make your faith grown that stronger. I know she is your daughter and I can't wait to see her in your arms.

Hugs and sending lots of prayers!

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry for the new roadblock. I'm keeping your family in my thoughts and hoping you get a quick, happy resolution.


Angie said...

Praying to our Lord and Savior right now. Be strong!

hannahjiejie said...

Lifting your whole family up. It's been amazing to watch the process and I know that He has a wonderful play for for your family.

Kelley Brown said...

Hey Mandi,
Thanks for your sweet comment. Yes, you can totally sympathize with me and I want to cry over your roadblocks too. :) It is incredibly hard to feel stuck in this process and to feel so hopeless. Praying for you and for Keliah and for the whole process to speed ahead once you're DTC.